In the months before I turned thirty my husband I decided it was time to grow our family, we had been married for almost three years, were very much in love and both wanted children. It was time! It soon became apparent that it wasn’t time after all. Month after month there was so sign of conception and the “baby making” that had once been fun and exciting became mechanical, draining and at times bordered on unpleasant. This devastated me. My whole life I held a philosophy that hard work and following the rules garnered the desired results. My whole foundation was shattered.